Tuesday, July 11, 2006

ponds

The good news is the dogs ok , even though he slipped yesterday chasing Rags , and was favouring his leg again . The bad news is my back is hurt again . the wife thinks she needs another pond in the backyard . our Koi had babies and now we need another pond to put them in . I think we are going into Koi sales . the roots where the pond had to go were brutal to shovel , and now my back is shot , right arm , right side , face , eye all hurt , time to go back to the chiropracter , but I hate going there , haven't been for a year and I think I still owe $30 , maybe I will tough it out for another day or so .
I really thought this would be more fun and interesting , but this week , blogging seems boring , maybe because my life is , or I just don't have enough time to write interesting enough stuff . I suppose I could make up some stuff , who would know , naw I can't do that , I m the only one reading this , so no use lying to myself ,
the wife who I will now call Leeann from now on , is crazy about these ponds and yard work . She puts on here shorts and skimpy top and works like crazy until she is hot and sweaty , then she bosses me around to do the same , butI think I am rebelling agianst her and besides my back hurts , I just want to watch her get hot and sweaty , and then maybe when the sun is almost down , grab her in the shed for some hot shed or outdoor sex . I think that will be tonites plan

Saturday, July 08, 2006

the sex was good , but this morning was almost a tragedy

the new bed is great , no sore back this morning , great sex last night .we had it really going good , big time orgasms .
This morning though almost turned into a tragedy when the dog got out on the road and got hit by a car , Heès ok though , really close and heès really lucky , and so are we , I m not sure how I would cope after loosing my other dog an the railway 2 years ago . I swore I would never have another dog , and here we are 2 years later with two , They are both so dependent on us , I cried when Shadow was limping around after getting hit , and I just kept saying Im sorry , God has put me in your trust and I let you down ,

Friday, July 07, 2006

house for sale or not

we looked at another house yesterday , it was older and had character, and lots of room , but the yard sucked for the dogs to run in , and have a pond , and it had close nieghbours , and the neighbourhood kinda sucked , welfare row up the street , and it was a busy corner , just too many negatives . And on top of that the place we looked at last week has a sold sign on it , same old story , everything we like sells fast except our place .
Wife got into her old bitchy way last night when my son called and wanted a ride home , Since I wasn't up to an argument last night it was a pretty quiet evening . We drive her daughter all over the place , but when my son wants a ride home from somewhere 5 mins away , it becomes abig fucking deal , arrrrgh
on a positive note , we bought a new bedroom suite today , spending money we don't got . Hopefully that is gonna help the wife , as she has some bad feelings about sharing the house and furniture that was my ex's . That was one of the reasons we listed the house was to go to something that is ours , but its has turned into such a fiaco , selling ours and finding a place we want . We are going to talk about , and think about taking the house off the market . on a much more positive note ... sex tonight , we have to break in the new bed , I think its time for candles and wine , and a couple of good orgasms . and a weekend doing nothing , or going to the beach ,
I think we both need a vacation . maybe up north to visit uncle jeff , who is shcizophrenic and lives almost on the lake in his moms house , who just died this spring and left him everything , close to a million dollars worth , even though he tried to kill her 25 years gao , and spent 10 years in a psych hospital . He's is as well as he can be now , I don't think he ever was schizo , but was fried on drugs when he did it , and the treatmnet they put him through did more harm than good . We should all try to live our life more like jeff , money means nothing to him , sex means nothing to him , he is just happy to have fiends and family and help out anyone he can , He is the town handyman and everyone nows him by name and the whole town looks after him after his mom died . I really am jealous of the life he leads now , but im sure he has gone through unspeakable hell to get there , . I only met him i started dating my wife ( he is from her side of the family ) , but we really hit it off great together , and he is one of those very unique people on this earth that there is far too few of .

Thursday, July 06, 2006

day one blog one

So this is it , does anyone really read this stuff , well here goes , Its a really fucking boring day at the office , so after reading weblogs lately I figured I can do this too , big deal , now I feel stupid , If they didn't want me to get to these sights they would have blocked them by now right ? what a fucking model employee I am. hope I don't loose my job over this . I really do need it , actually just the money , the work I could live without . So now what , my life is a rollercoaster that can change at any second , one fucking day after another , most times a blur , its been that way since my first wife lied her ass off , started fucking a family friend and then left , leaving me to raise a 14 year old daughter and a twelve year old boy . they are 19 and 17 now , hats off to me , they are still alive , not drugged out , and seem like they are gonna turn out ok , it was pretty fucking scary and tense many times though . even throw in a new girlfriend for me , who is now my wife and her 13 year old daughter with a real fucking irritating voice and attitude . Thank god she is away at camp most of the summer this year . . so now its time to throw some thoughts down ans see if i can help find my self , not that i was really looking to hard , but it is something we should do once in a while before we die , I guess we are all writers at heart , this just seems to encourage it a little
we are going to look at a house today , selling my life long home , I'v e had enough of it , but then again maybe we will stay there , its that money thing running our lives isn't it . its supposed to be a old house with charater , we will see . its the 40th or so house we have looked at in this small town in ontario , but not as small as the one where we live now
I work in a fairly big city , so i like to get away from it to the small town were Im no better than my neighbor and he doesn't think he's better than me